Orin spent his final days in this hospital where he was rushed to emergency. Since then, I surely stop by here on my way home from the library and find out how my emotion has been moving. Orin is no more, his soul/energy wave has become a single superconscious. And because he is wrapping me up, so that is why I can move forward with peace of mind.
あたしの影がオリンの横顔に見える: My shadow looks like Orin’s profile
マットとリズの美味しいご飯、食材はほぼ彼らの庭で収穫したもの。花も見事に咲き誇っているね。
Delicious foods from Matt and Liz, mostly harvested from their own garden. The flowers are blooming beautifully too.
美味しい、美味しい！: Delicious, delicious! yummy yummy!彼らのハウスの瞑想ルームに、オリンの絵が掛かっている : A painting of Orin hangs in the meditation room of their house.Oさんの月命日、8月25日。マッサージセラピースタジオにて: O’s death anniversary, August 25th. At the massage therapy studio
SJAC closing @ gallery Maxwith lovely friends, maybe my daughters(?)“I SEE SUMMER” closing @ 128 gallerywith Orin’s & J.M’s artworks @ 128 gallery with Satoko-chanSo much fun, I went theretalent showtalent show 2talent show keep goingtalent show poem readingIn here, our friend Frank Craven teaches poem, & art history outdoor dancing class near my apt, so cutefirefly as if Orin’s message, Yes I feel so!Judi’s Venetian Satellite @ her artists studio’s lobby
When I met Orin in 2007, he had already formed a music band. It’s called “Fist of Kindness”. They adopted the style of country rock and devoted themselves to performance activities. At that time, Orin was really lively, and I still had some physical strength, so I carried Orin’s heavy bass and participated in rehearsals at a music studio near Port Authority Bus Terminal. The members changed several times during this period, but in 2016, two of the main members moved to North Carolina, which was also the de facto dissolution of the group.
I think this fact was hard for Orin. He really loved the group, playing and recording.
Orin resumed his art activities to fill the void. For the next 6-7 years, we moved between Arizona and Upstate New York while returning to music with himself. We should move to New York City first, and then do more music collabs with everyone! Orin was so excited that he was going to do his best in art too.
This time, based on the editing of Gary Heidt and Mark Tulk, a single CD that can be said to be the culmination of the past has been completed. thank you very much.
エリック からは、彼の作品をいただいたり, J. I ちゃんもチャイニーズフーズ持参で訪ねてくれたし、（アリゾナトリップの話が面白かった）E.K.Pさん、Micaちゃん、もう、皆さんが気にしてくれてテキストをくださったり。トキちゃんもゆかちゃんもありがとう。
Eric gave me his work, J.I. visited me with Chinese food (with interesting stories of their trip to Tucson/AZ). E.K.P. , Mica, toki, Yuka, and many sent me greeting by text message.
At Shoko Therapy Studio, I was able to meet Y.B, a mutual friend of mine. Her husband, M, gave me homemade soap and a cream! It’s nice to receive it, it’s a great thing with love. On this day, E.T and her husband Y.T helped me with my online account creation and address change, and it was a truly special day. Full of happiness.
T家からのミッドタウンマンハッタンの眺め手作りクリームがこんな可愛らしい容器に入ってる
マットとリズのシェアハウスで美味しい食事。A delicious meal at Matt and Liz’s share house.
And when it’s 11:00 at night, I can’t stay awake anymore. Every night I say, “Good night. O-san! ’ and woke up before 6:00 the next morning. Every morning, I change the water in Orin and chant the Heart Sutra whenever I feel like it. This is for everyone who passed away in my memory. I wish you all the best and happiness. Let’s live together with everyone today.
Luckily! the steel shelves that Orin had been using with heavy and complex computer system in many years, went to our good friend E & M’ house. Ms.E, I think her natural talent is to grow plants (and not only for the plants ). So did my mother, Orin’s mother, our previous landlady of Newburgh, and so was Orin. I’m really happy that things are going wonderful direction.
photo by Mattphoto by Lizphoto by Lizphoto by Lizphoto by Liz
” Dear everyone, thank you very much for coming to my husband Orin Buck Memorial today. Both Orin and I have been blessed with many warm friendships, and I am especially grateful to everyone who has encouraged and helped me since Orin passed away.
From 2007 to February 2023, life with Orin is as if riding a roller coaster that never stops. It can be said that it is full of ups and downs, we had fought many times. But each time we deepen our understanding, let’s be a team for the rest of our lives, we’ll be together until we die, we made tight commit. Orin always said “You know just you and me, right?”.
Now, after getting off the roller coaster because it suddenly stopped, I can take a bird’s-eye view of how we have traveled these years. Orin tolerated me endlessly. He accepted me unconditionally. We loved each one’ spirit Yes, each moment by moment.
Also I think Orin has served people amazingly in his lifetime. When people are in trouble, he wants to help them. His last words were, ” I wanted to work for people more! “
It was also our desire to return to New York City where music and art mates were waiting for us. Now, Orin, who had left his body and became the pure energy itself, must be happy and playing around freely. When I think about the stress he has been battling with his disease for the last four years, I’m filled with the feeling that I want him to be happy and free forever. (I know he is in the eternal dimension, far from the out of time, space and direction)
Since Orin passed away, something strange happens every day. His personality was also some playful parts, so I’m sure everyone will feel something.
My remarkable memories for example, Orin’s bass when I first met him, headphones that he always used be, his favorite jacket that came from his mother, a drawing of a crow that he knew I love, a sweatshirt that he designed in Michigan period, and a big pants because of his ascites. He immediately picked up suspenders that he always used habitually. I wanted to share these things with you.
Today is also Orin’s birthday. And just start “Higan”. In Japan, we call “Higan” is a Buddhist word and means the world of enlightenment. It is believed that the spirit of dead people can cross the river from the other world to this world. So I’m deeply moved.
Thank you very much. Sincerely yours, 19 March, 2023 Sanae M. Buck “
