Author: Sanae Maeda Buck

最近の創作詩：recent creative poem #1

Literature and Poetry

詩人＋アーティスト＋環境活動家のフランクの主宰する詩のクラスを受講しており, 毎回トピックをもとに皆が各々の詩を展開する。今回は『階段』。私なりに, 与えられた言葉のコンセプトを展開させ, 右脳と左脳のバランスを培う良い訓練だと思っている。

I am taking a poetry class led by Frank Craven, a poet, artist, musician, and environmental activist, and each time, everyone develops their own poem based on a topic. This time he gave us was “The Stairway”. In my own way, I think it is good training to develop the concept of given words and cultivate the balance between the right and left brain.

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Timeline

Right now, from the top of the stairs, various phenomena called “future” are rushing down,

Right now, the moment you lift one foot onto the step to climb the stairs, the “future” ones slip past you in an instant,

And now, they sprint down the stairs to the “past” and disappear into the dark abyss.

ちょっとドキドキ、カリンバ演奏：A little thrill, playing the kalimba @ gallery OneTwentyEight

Art, Myself, New York City. NY

いいえ、『演奏』なんて書いちゃいけません。お友達のアートオープニングで少し弾かさせていただいたの。初心者ですよ。教えを請うているJが都合で来られず、即興を含めて、”蝶々”、”ロンドン橋落ちた”、”ぶんぶんぶん蜂が飛ぶ”、”うさぎのダンス”　画廊オーナーの和子さんやYさんも歌って下さって、どうやら無事に過ぎました。この機会を与えて下さった全てに多大に感謝。

No, I shouldn’t write “performance”. I played a little at a friend’s art opening. I’m a beginner. J, who has been teaching kalimba to me, couldn’t come, so I improvised and played “Butterfly”, “London Bridge is Falling Down”, “The Bee Flies”, and “Dance of the Rabbit”. Kazuko, the owner of the gallery, and Y also sang, and it seems that the event went smoothly. I am so grateful to everyone for giving me this opportunity.

photo by S.O.G
こちらは、ユニオンスクエアでのイベント：the closing event for the LOV sculpture in Union SQ

オリン、ここに眠る。それこれ。：Orin rests here, and so on.

Environment, Fantastic People & Friends, Life With Jiiya/Orin

所用でジュディのアートスタジオに出かけた。昨年、彼女のイタリーのミツバチ園に、オリンの遺灰の一部を撒いていただくよう頼んだ。彼女は快く引き受けて、柘榴の木の根元に撒いてくださった。今年の様子では, 柘榴の木の周りは百花繚乱。彼女はたくさんの素敵な写真を見せてくれた。ミツバチが飛び交い、まさに平和と愛の園。どこかに行ってしまったオリンだけど (それに、もう個人じゃなくて超意識に戻っちゃたかなあ）きっとオリンは喜んでいる。そう思うアタシが有る。

I visited to Judi’s art studio. Last year, I asked her to spread some of Orin’s ashes in her bee garden in Italy. She kindly agreed and spread them at the base of a pomegranate tree. This year, the area around the pomegranate tree was full of blooming with many flowers. She showed many nice photos! Bees are flying around, A garden of peace and love. Orin has gone somewhere (and maybe he’s returned to superconsciousness, not individuality anymore), but I’m sure he’s happy. That’s what I feel.

Bee Garden in Murano/Italy. photo by Judi Harvest
At her studio. photo by Judi Harvest

10月25日はオリンの２０回目の月命日であり、彼の父親の生誕日でもある。仲良くやってるかしらね？また、家族で生まれ変わっているかな。夕方、カリンバの集まりに出かけ有意義な時間を過ごした。また、27日はワーセンターのオープニングに久々に出かけた。少しだけハロウイーンコスチュームっぽくしたよ。

October 25th is the 20th months of Orin’s death and his father’s biological birthday. I wonder if they’re getting along well? Also, I wonder if they’re being reborn as a family. In the evening, I went to a kalimba gathering and had a meaningful time. Also, on the 27th, I went to the opening of the WAH Center for the first time in a while. I dressed up a little like a Halloween costume.

楽しい一日、いつも楽しく、：Have a great day, always have fun,

Fantastic People & Friends, random post

MとLがヤードセールを開催、面白そうなので出かけた。インディアンサマーと呼ばれるポカ陽気の一日、真っ青な青空そして暖かい。路上の落ち葉との対比がちょっと異次元。また、久々にCがニューヨークに来ており、8年ぶりの（？）再会を果たす。時空も過去も思い出も無いわね、今ここの出会いと喜び。

Cいわく、数週間前にオリンの夢を見たって。何やら楽しくおしゃべりしてハグして、目が覚めたって。オリンはこんなふうにお友達の世界に生きている、たとえそれが『夢の世界』であっても。なんてありがたいことだろう。

M and L were opening a yard sale, sounded fun, so I went. It was a warm & sunny day, known as Indian Summer, with a clear blue sky and warm weather. The contrast with the fallen leaves on the street was a little otherworldly. Also, C had come to New York City, actually this is my first time to see her in 8 years (?!), There was no time or space, no past, no memories, just the encounter and joy of this here and now.

C said that she had a dream about Orin a few weeks ago. She woke up after chatting and hugging him. Orin lives in his friend’s world like this, even if it’s just a “dream world”. How grateful I am.

近所で有名なハロウィーンハウス：The famous Halloween house in the neighborhood

先行こう、先！：Let’s go ahead!

Myself, random post

あたし自身を奮い立たせるのってなんだか頼もしい。先、と言っても未来軸のことでなくて今この瞬間なんですが、早い話, 大きい買い物をしました。ラップトップの中古よ, でも2020年版の結構良いバージョン。古い子たちはアップグレードができなくて, 編集や書き物やその他、何かと停滞してたの。トニさんにお世話になりました。ありがとうございます。

It’s somehow reassuring to motivate myself. By ahead, It doesn’t mean the future, but this moment, but to put it simply, I made a big purchase. A used laptop, but a pretty good version for 2020. The old ones couldn’t be upgraded, so I was kind of stuck with video editing and writing and other things. Tony-san helped me out alot. Thank you very much.

結婚記念日: Our Wedding Anniversary

Life With Jiiya/Orin

10月3日はオリンちゃんとの結婚記念日。お祝いに生前の彼の好物でもあった、ほろ苦味のレッドワインを供える。前日はお友達に会って、お土産に天然塩をいただいたので、こちらもしっかりお供えしたよ。とても嬉しい。　　　　　　　合掌

October 3rd is my wedding anniversary with Orin-chan. To celebrate, I’m offering him some bitter red wine, which was his favorite taste. Also I met a friend the day before, and was given great natural salt as a gift, so I made a proper offering here. Really good feeling! rest in peace, love, light, and happiness

19回目の月命日は満面の笑顔：A big smile on the 19th monthly anniversary of his death

Fantastic People & Friends, Life With Jiiya/Orin

先日、Mさんがウナギ海苔巻きとコーンコロッケ、きゅうりのお漬物あれこれを携えて、遊びに来てくださった。生前のオリンはMさんのお料理が大好きで、みるみる食べ尽くす。そういうふうだったので、もちろん真っ先にお裾分け。ひょいっと写真を見ると、もうオリンちゃん満面の笑顔。どう見ても顔に赤みが射し笑っている？！　　Mさん、どうもありがとうございます。　合掌　　　＊月命日の前倒しになったかな＊

M-san came to visit with eel seaweed rolls, corn croquettes, and other things. When Orin was alive, he loved M-san’s cooking and would eat it all up in an instant. Since he was like that, of course we shared some foods with Orin first. When we glanced at the photo, Orin-chan was already full of smiles. No matter how you look at it, his face is flushed red and he is smiling?! Thank you very much, M-san. Gasshou/Rest in peace 　　　*I guess the monthly anniversary of his death came forward*

オリンちゃんの月命日に召し上がれ、ってスイーツ満載フォトが届いたよ。　有難う、Kさん！：I received a photo full of sweets to enjoy on the monthly anniversary of Orin-chan’s death. Thank you, K-san!　

何て有り難きこと。見事な仏花をオリンにシェアして下さったSちゃん。これも大切なご縁なのですね：What a blessing. S-chan shared her beautiful flowers with Orin. This is also a precious spiritual connection. photo by S.T

Yumaさんから、彼女のパフォーマンスを撮ったビデオが必要、との要望で久しぶりにこのビデオのチェックをした。あ〜懐かしい！　ことに、オリンのピアノのサウンドトラックが7年越しに蘇る。いや、時空という概念を外そう。今此処があり『中今』をビデオ越しに体験している。 metamorphosis vol. 2 <–クリックしてご覧ください

Yuma-san requested that she needs to get a video of her performance that I made. I checked out this video for the first time in a while. Ah, how nostalgic! In particular, Orin’s piano soundtrack has been revived after seven years. No, let’s remove the concept of time and space. We are here now, experiencing the “Naka-Ima/just here & now” through video. metamorphosis vol. 2 <– click

植物さんの世話、画廊でビデオ撮り、詩のクラスやお見舞いなど：Taking care of plants, taking video at the gallery, poetry class, visiting friend in the hospital, etc

Myself, random post

植物は自らが動き回らない分、周囲の動生物たちを彼等のエクステンションとして活用するのだろうか？この一月半、帰国中のお友達の代理で植物のお世話をさせていただいている。そう、彼等が主役、なので謙虚に彼等の望みを聞く。日当たり、向き、水加減やお手入れ。最初は双方ともに緊張していたが（？）打ち解けてきたのでお世話が楽しい。

Since plants don’t move around themselves, perhaps they use the animals and creatures(human) around them as extensions of themselves? For the past month and a half, I have been taking care of the plants on behalf of my friend. Yes, they are the main characters, so I humbly listen to their requests. Sunlight, direction, watering, care. At first, both of us were nervous (?), but we soon got comfortable with each other and it’s now fun to take care of them.

先日、Yさんのお見舞いはカリンバ携えて出かけた。日本の童謡を弾き、彼女の耳元で歌い続ける。窓外の林は紅葉前の夏の名残。暖かい日差しが彼女を包み込む。

The other day, I went to visit my dear friend Y with kalimba. I played Japanese children’s songs and sang them in her ears. The forest outside the window was still a remnant of summer before the leaves turned red. The warm sunlight wrapped her.

清楚に謙虚に蕾が出ました：The bud　have appeared quietly and humbly.
フランクの”作詩”クラスに誘われた。皆が俳句に興味を持っていることが面白いなって思った。：I was invited to Frank’s “Poetry” class. It was nice that everyone there was interested in “haiku”.

Jと, カリンバの練習：Kalimba practice with J

Fantastic People & Friends, Music

弾くのは自分の親指の先端、かろうじて爪の生え際という微妙さもあり、不慣れなあたしは金属キーを弾くたびいとも簡単に血が出てしまうのですよ。Jは彼の指の先端を見せてくれる、『タコ』（！）これを作れ、と。しばらく、あたしは基本の練習と、”月の光”（ドビュッシーのピアノ曲） ”君が世”（日本国歌）もう一つ欲張って ”砂山” （童謡・唱歌）この三つをしっかり弾けるようにしたいと決めている。

I play with the tip of my thumb, barely at the base of my fingernail, and I’m not used to it, so I get blood every time I play the metal keys/tines. J shows me the tip of his finger, a “callus” (!) and tells me to make one. For the time being, I’ve decided to practice the basics and be able to play “Clair de Lune” (Debussy’s piano piece), “Kimi ga Yo” (Japanese national anthem), and, greedily, “Sunayama” (nursery song).

ブッシュキルの滝めぐり(ディングマンとレイモンドの滝も含めて)：Bushkill Falls Tour including Dingmans Falls and Raimondskill Falls.

Environment, Fantastic People & Friends

『ブッシュキルの滝』（←ここをクリック）』は、別名『ペンシルベニア（州）のナイアガラ』と呼ばれ, EちゃんDちゃんのお誘いで、ずいぶん楽しい体験をしました。ちょっとした森林や自然に入り込むのはニューバーグにいたころ以来かな、森林浴と滝浴をたっぷり吸収してきましたよ。お二人には感謝のみ。本当にどうもありがとうございました。＊どの滝も美しいばかりでなく、威厳を感じました。

Bushkill Falls ← click. Also known as “Niagara Falls of Pennsylvania”, I had a very enjoyable experience with E-chan and D-chan who invited me to go. This is actually my first time so much enjoyed in the nature since I moved to NYC, I thoroughly enjoyed forest bathing and waterfall bathing. I’m very grateful to the two of them. Thank you very much.　＊All the waterfalls were not only beautiful but also I felt dignity.